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So I'm leaving for NY in about 24 hours. Hard to believe! The past few days have been pretty horrible, dealing with the emotions and all. It's such a roller coaster and the grief comes in waves when I really least expect it. Sometimes I feel like my trust in people is shot for a good long time. Other times, I know that I can't let Alexis have that power over me. I am angry that she has her nice little wife while I have nothing. I have never been treated like a piece of garbage before... I have to remind myself that I'm not the first person in the world who has had this happen to them (though it sure feels that way sometimes). I have to replace the things I left at the condo... which isn't a lot, and totally not worth going back and getting. I am also not looking forward to being alone in a car for ten hours. You know how when you get a new car, you notice a lot of them on the road all of a sudden? Well I'm noticing Mustangs a lot now. And it really, really sucks...
But. NY tomorrow!!! :D
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found this video, thought i'd share. enjoy :)
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OK, so there's a movie coming out based on Percy Jackson & the Olympians. Now I love me some Greek mythology, especially with gods and monsters and all that jazz. So when I check out the trailer for The Lightning Thief and see Brandon T. Jackson in a movie about teenaged demigods walking the earth in modern times, I got psyched.
I thought to myself, "Ooooh! I wonder which god donated the DNA for him? Hermes? Apollo? Hm. Lemme check Wikipedia."
And what the fuck do I find? What do I find?
The two White characters portrayed in the film get to be demigods. Do you know what Brandon's character is?
A satyr. A motherfucking goat-legged, furniture-eating, fucking anything that moves assed satyr. Did I tell you he was a satyr? Y'know, half-man, half-beast. The Black guy plays a half-animal comic relief character. Goddamit, Hollywood! Why the hell do you keep making shit where I have to turn my brain off to enjoy it?
Fine, Rosario Dawson gets to be Persephone (which is alls kinds of loaded when you think about what happened to her). But she's not part of the main trio.
Fuck this shit. I'm gonna see it anyway, but I'll watch for Pierce Brosnan in a wheelchair and Uma Thurman with snakes in her hair.
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Membership to the comm is temporarily closed until some current issues are resolved by the mod squad.
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A: I just recently had another romantic mishap. Just a little one.
-Met someone.
-She said she wasn't wasn't interested in exclusive dating.
-She decided she was going to date someone else exclusively.
haha
B: I hate not knowing whether people are purposely avoiding me or just forgetting to call me back of whatever. I'm inclined towards paranoia so it's honestly really hard to tell. Maybe they're busy or they lost their phone or they just forgot to call me back. Maybe they just don't want to talk to me for whatever reason and are expecting me to get the message. I don't know how to handle this, either. I can't really ask people without seeming like a fucking nutter or intensely whiny. Ugh.
C: I'm finally starting to feel better about my grappling. it's been 2 months I've been in a lull and FINALLY I feel somewhat good about it again.
D: I'm working 2 days a week for my parents but I still need more work. I still need a bigger income. I need to move out. I need to go to school next semester.
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Does it bother you if someone assumes you are straight? Or gay, for that matter?
When I was younger, it bothered me if someone assumed I was gay. When I got a bit older, it bothered me if someone assumed I was straight, but it was okay if they assumed I was gay. And now I'm kind of, eh, on the matter. Sometimes it bothers me, gay or straight, and sometimes it doesn't.
(What REALLY bothers me is when someone acts like they know me better than I do. I've known a few people who insist that I'm gay because I have a girlfriend. Yuck.)
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Oh fuck them. I've been watching the stupid "blonds have more fun" marathon and it's a) a fucking ridiculous concept, b) revealed the Poor Dead White Woman bias, and c)WHARGARBLE at the omg~ she's making it up. FUCK THEM FUCK THEM WITH A RUSTY CACTUS.
Also, they whipped out "10% of rape accusations are false" and Idk where they got that number.
Oh, and I really, really hate the stupid as fuck ~messages~ they put into the show, which is ridic and subtle as a brick wall. Like the episode earlier today about unplugging someone in a persistent vegetative state.
I repeat: rusty cactus.
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(Chapter 13)
Hey, folks. Long time, no Twilight. My last entry in this series is dated August of last year. It's taken me a goddamn year to recover enough to be willing to subject myself to the second half of this book.
Do I remember what happened in the first 13 chapters? Not really, but I hardly think that will be an impediment to picking up where I left off. Bella is a bad person. Edward is a bad person. They are both vapid. There is a Volvo. Meyer did no research. The sparkling...doesn't actually bother me, since it's just shitty description for a perfectly fine re-imagining of vampires as marble-like.
See? See? I AM FAIR AND EVEN-HANDED.
( In which nothing happens. )
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I've uploaded the 2007/2008 Casting Report from the Screen Actor's Guild and just wanted to share it, there's 18 slides of interesting info--and seeing the statistics are...fascinating.
TV/Theatrical Productions consists of features, features made for under $3.75 million and TV series/pilots/TV movies/mini-series, but excluding animation. 'Eyeball' determinations of: Age/Gender and Race, disabilities are uncounted.
2007 Casting Data for non-Caucasian performers: 2006 27.7%, 2007 28.3%, 2008 27.5%
Share of all 2007 TV/Theatrical Roles: Native American Indian 0.30%, Unknown/Other 4.1%, Asian/Pacific 3.4%, Latino/Hispanic 6.7%, African-American 14.8%, Caucasian 70.7%
Share of all 2008 TV/Theatrical Roles: Native American Indian 0.30%, Unknown/Other 3.8%, Asian/Pacific 3.8%, Latino/Hispanic 6.4%, African-American 13.3%, Caucasian 72.5%
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Sammy just left. I spent most of the afternoon scanning in old photos that he brought.
That guy Brian that was my first "real" boyfriend
The guy without a shirt is the one I may have gotten HIV from. Totally worth it, amirite? (BTW, he's dead now. As are a few of the people in the pictures.)
The rest are here.
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http://transgriot.blogspot.com/2009/11/2009-litdor-keynote-speech.html  TransGriot Note: This is the text of the keynote speech I'm giving at this minute for the 2009 LITDOR Service in Centerpoint, LI, NY Giving honor to God, my gracious LITDOR hosts, my brothers and sisters in Christ Jesus, members of this church congregation, my transgender brothers and sisters, friends and allies of our community. I have been given the honor of delivering the keynote speech for the 2009 Long Island Transgender Day of Remembrance Service. I thank you for the opportunity of joining the long list of prominent people in our community who have preceded me in having the chance to do so. Many of those people are ones who I admire, and it’s nice to be included in such lofty company. I thank Eileen and all the wonderful LITDOR people that I’ve had the pleasure to meet today for extending the invitation. I thank you for doing the hard behind the scenes work, the phone conversations and numerous e-mail exchanges to ensure I would be standing proudly before you today on this not so happy occasion. One of the things I thought about in the days leading up to my speech tonight and also pondered on the plane ride here is that this event is taking place on the anniversary of another senseless death, the assassination of President John F. Kennedy. In his televised June 11, 1963 speech on civil rights, he used the words ‘a moral crisis’ to describe what was going on in the nation at the time.. Well, tonight, we are here to call attention to another moral crisis, the senseless loss of people to anti-transgender violence. Tonight we are going to talk about the 120 people that are no longer here on Planet Earth. One of those people on the tragically long list we are memorializing this year is Lateisha Green, who was killed in Syracuse, NY six days before TDOR 2008. We’re going to talk about the 120 senseless deaths that have not only taken away a brother, sister, aunt, uncle, son, daughter or cousin, it has deprived our various communities around the world of the contributions our lost brothers and sisters could have made to those societies. We know in the trans community we have some amazing people in it who have as we say in my community the skills to pay the bills, assuming we’re ever allowed to show that we can do so. Well never know if the people that were killed would have gone on to become leading educators, made that scientific breakthrough that advances life for all humanity, created art, become prominent social and political leaders in our various nations, or simply become parents raising a family Well never know that because they have been violently taken away from us. It also causes us to say to ourselves, “there but for the grace of God go I’ I know the question many of us are asking ourselves tonight and have been since we started this ongoing gender journey is. ‘Why?’ Why are people so resistant to us simply living our lives or feel so threatened by the existence of transgender people that they have the misguided belief that they can kill us? Maybe it’s because the religious leaders who are supposed to help us sort out these moral crises are instead exacerbating the problem. When you have the leader of the Roman Catholic Church make a Christmas Eve speech in which he states, “humanity needed to listen to the "language of creation" to understand the intended roles of man and woman and behavior beyond traditional heterosexual relations was a "destruction of God’s work"., it’s not surprising that there was an alarming spike of transgender deaths in Roman Catholic dominated countries such as Brazil, Honduras, and Guatemala. When you have a moderate Islamic cleric such as Malaysia’s Mohamad Asri Zainul Abidin say in an interview transsexuals should be fined or jailed if counseling proves ineffective at deterring them from transition, then follow up that misguided comment up by stating, "We must try to reform them and give them advice. We must not allow them to stray. Imagine if this world were filled with transsexuals -- what would happen to the human race?" It’s not surprising that the result of such comments by Islamic clerics who share Abidin’s opinions is persecution and killing of transpeople in Muslim countries. When you have fundamentalist Christians, our modern day Pharisees and Sagicees repeatedly violate the Ninth Commandment of ‘bearing false witness against thy neighbor’ because of their personal transphobia or as part of promoting their regressive right wing political agenda, is it any wonder that we have repeated violations of the Sixth Commandment in regards to transgender people? In case you’re wondering what the Sixth Commandment states, it’s ‘thou shalt not kill.’ It is the words of these so-called religious leaders that are fueling the dastardly deeds of the people who are killing our trans brothers and sisters. Well, time to school all the faith based haters out there. Increasing reams of medical evidence and recorded history point to the inescapable conclusion that transpeople are part of the divinely inspired mosaic of human life. The sooner y’all get that through your thick heads, the better life will be for all of us on Planet Earth. Why is this still happening to transgender people? As I know all too well from my people’s tortured history in the Americas and across the African Diaspora, when you ‘other’ a people, promote lies and half truths about them, refuse to understand and learn about their issues, and deny their humanity, the end result is they begin to die at the hands of the people who are actively denying their humanity. The funny thing about that is as the Forces of Intolerance continue their nefarious mission to dehumanize transpeople, we fight back even harder to ensure that we call them on it when it happens. Now that I’ve given you the abridged version to the ‘why’ this is happening, it’s time to move on to our solemn task for this evening. What we are gathered in this church for this evening is to remember the 120 people who lives have sadly been extinguished by anti-transgender violence. 120 people. It’s triple the number we memorialized in 2008. 120 people having candles being lit for them during this service to symbolize each one of the lives that was taken away from us far too soon. 120 people too many For some of the people we memorialize, we won’t even get the opportunity of reading their names because they were either killed and dumped on the side of a road or for security reason the name of the deceased was not released in order to protect their living relatives. 120 people who died simply because somebody hated them for who they were. I have to point out that one of the 120 people on this list that we memorialize this year is a cisgender man by the name of Michael Hunt. He died for the same reason Pfc. Barry Winchell did ten years ago, because his killer didn’t like the fact he fell in love with a transwoman. Michael Hunt fell in love with Taysia Elzy, and for that he paid with his life. Dwight DeLee didn’t like the fact that Lateisha Green was daring to live her life openly and unabashedly about who she was. A gunshot outside a Syracuse house party fired from a rifle wielded by DeLee wounded her brother Mark and ended her life. I’m a fan of the science fiction series Battlestar Galactica. I recently viewed the movie entitled The Plan in which Number Six says to Brother Cavil, in regards to the genocidal nuclear sneak attack launched by him and his fellow humanoid robots that destroyed the Twelve Colonies of Mankind and led them on a quest to find a new home on Earth, ‘you can’t declare war on love.’ That’s what I take away from these TDOR 2009 memorial services that took place all around the world on November 20 and here this evening. We are saying to those who have declared war on transpeople, ‘You cannot declare war on love.’ There is the love our allies have shown for us this week. The love we have shown for each other and we mourn our losses and resolve to work even harder to make the TDOR obsolete. The love that we show for our fallen brothers and sisters. Love is the most powerful force in the universe, and it ensures long after the outer shell of a body that housed our spirits becomes dust that goes back to the earth. It the advantage we have over the Forces of Intolerance and all the other nattering nabobs of negativity who demonize and deny our shared humanity. It is the love we have for our fallen transbrothers and transsisters that compels us to gather in this church today to mourn their losses, and ensure that we the living never forget the people who died.
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I had to laugh when I saw the rules for posting over at the State Journal Register in Springfield, IL. #5 states: "5. Don't say anything here you wouldn't say in front of your mother at the dinner table."
They have obviously never been to MY dinner table.
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These cis woc are learning how to weld. The best part is, they are doing mostly gas (oxy-fuel) welding, which is becoming a lost art these days, in a world where it seems every man has a $100 P.O.S. wirefeed welder in his garage. The money is good, and many of these single mothers will go on to earn more than $100,000 a year.
Gas welding is pure skill, and with it, you can weld about anything that can be welded. I'm impressed, and happy to see (cis) woc doing what I do. Maybe, just maybe some day, a program like this will help trans women and trans woc lift ourselves up.
In the meantime, enjoy.
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Dear asshat (and you're straight, what a surprise):
I do not set queer rights back by being angry when people say homophobic things. I do not set queer rights back by calling bigots on their shit.
You know who really sets queer rights back? Bigots. And asshats like you who tell me to calm down, as if being discriminated against isn't worth being angry over.
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My father called. He screamed at me for 31 seconds. Apparently my college has been sending him mail with "Aden" on it. He asked if I had changed my name. I told him no. He told me that he had tried to go along with this, but when it enters his house he has a problem with it. He told me I was rubbing it (my gender identity) in his face, and he can't put up with it anymore. Called me back, then texted me saying he would shut my phone off if i didn't call him back. I texted him back saying that I couldn't, because he hurt me, and that I would have Simmons not send them mail or call the house for Aden.
My problem at this point is that is coming time to go home for Thanksgiving, and I would avoid Thanksgiving as I have other invitations for dinner. It is however coupled with my birthday which makes things complicated. I'm barely making enough money for my bills, and am hoping for some gifts to help with my lack of funds. I also need to go to the bank for more money (it's a local bank). My dad was a reagan era drill sergeant, and has not seen me much since I started t. So, I'm rather afraid of the fighting, which consists of him yelling at me until I cry. However, I also am afraid of the drama of my not coming home.
If I had the funds, I would gladly give up the securities they offer me.
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I'm still working on the actual review of New Moon which I plan to post tomorrow.
In the meantime, the beautiful and delightful ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) agilebrit gave me a wonderful idea from yesterday's post.
One of the biggest complaints is that vampires and werewolves have been overdone and poorly at that. However I would contend there's a reason why they've stood the test of time, particularly when done correctly.
So what series: television, movie or novels featuring vampires, werewolves, or some other popular monster would you recommend for others to check out that they probably haven't heard of.
I'll probably edit this post later to add my recommendations.
For now I highly recommend off the top of my head:
Dreadful Skin by Cherie Priest
The Nocturne City series by Caitlin Kittredge
Blade The Series (it was actually really good, shockingly enough)
All right webheads, I'll open it up to you. What would YOU recommend?
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http://transgriot.blogspot.com/2009/11/jfk-assassination-anniversary.html  Today is the sad anniversary of the November 22, 1963 assassination of our 35th President of the United Sates, John Fitzgerald Kennedy in Dallas. Since I have relatives in Dallas, I have visited Dealey Plaza and the area where the assassination happened numerous times While there are many quotes from JFK that I love, this one about liberalism is perfect answer to conservafools as to why I am a proud liberal. And yes, I agree with people who state that we need to immediately take that word back from the conservaidiots. If by a liberal they mean someone who looks ahead and not behind, someone who welcomes new ideas without rigid reactions, someone who cares about the welfare of the people - their health, their housing, their schools, their jobs, their civil rights, their civil liberties..if that is what they mean by a "liberal" then I am proud to be a liberal. John F. Kennedy, 35th president of the United StatesRest in peace, JFK. Our country would be a far better place today had you lived.
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Another in my random installations of food porn... It's sweet, spicy, savory and full of CRAB!
Pumpkin/Crab Bisque (serves a dozen or so)
1 big or 2 small cans of canned pumpkin
3 14oz cans of chicken or vegetable broth
1 lb crabmeat, picked for shells
1/2 cup dry sherry
1 pt half/half
1 carrot, diced
1 stalk celery, diced
1 medium onion, diced
2 cloves garlic, crushed
1/2 tsp ground thyme
Olive Oil
Garam Masala to taste OR cinnamon if curry tones don't work for you
Sugar, Salt and Pepper to taste
- Saute onion, carrot, celery and garlic in olive oil until very, very soft. Toss the thyme in and stir.
- Deglaze pan with a can of broth, and puree with a stick blender or stand-up blender.
- Transfer all that to a crockpot on low. Add pumpkin and remaining broth.
- Start with 1/2 TB of garam masala (or cinnamon), and adjust that tone from there.
- Start with 1 TB of salt, and adjust that tone from there.
- Start with 1 TB of black pepper, and adjust that tone from there.
- Start with 2 TB of sugar, and adjust that tone from there.
- Add sherry.
- Let this percolate on low for a few hours, then go back and readjust whatever tones you need to.
1/2 hour before serving, add half/half and crab. Stir, and warm through. Enjoy.
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THESE ARE CERTAINLY QUESTIONS FOR A GENERAL AUDIENCE I dunno I tried to read New Moon and absolutely hated it, it would surprise me if the film was better though seeing the previews. I like the fact that an 18 year old young woman throws her life away when her romantic interest leaves. FEMINISM! One of these days I'll write a little essay on why Twilight annoys me so much.
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Uh hey guys - I just joined a few days ago.
I have a question about changing bathrooms. I was hoping someone could offer advice. But first, I think I should quickly describe myself; I am pre-everthing, 19 year old, 5'6", slightly bodgey, smalled faced pretty boy. I wear a pretty good binder but haven't become friends with my prosthetic yet. Which is why I'm asking about this...
As it is, I still use the female toilets when I can't get to a disabled one, but whenever there's girls in the toilets, they all double take at me and I'm really uncomfortable about this now. But I'm also afraid if I go into the mens, the same thing will happen or at the worse, I'll get asked to leave. (I'm not a confident person!)
Does anyone have any advice or personal anecdotes to help me out a bit here?
Thank you in advance~
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Steve got jumped last night sometime around eight on Grant Street.
The guy tried to sell him drugs, and when Steve said no, he ran up and tried going into his pockets. So Steve punched him, the guy hit back, and Steve hit him a couple more times. Then some other guy ran up out of nowhere and hit Steve really hard across the face with a two by four. Then Steve fell and banged up his knee really badly and the two guys ran away.
Jesus fucking H.
His face is all banged up; he's got a really bad gash along his chin and upper lip. The rest of it is swollen and a little cut, but not cut badly.
They didn't take his wallet, or anything else.
For the most part, I love our neighborhood.
Then shit like this happens and sometimes it makes me wish there were more money around these parts. Then maybe people wouldn't resort to violent means of income.
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A sad fact that I have to deal with and own up to is this:
I am an artist at heart. I crave the act of creation. Whether that be creating music, images, sculpture, software, pottery, literature, poetry, hair, or any million numbers of other things. It's why I have been drawn, time and again, to the creative arts throughout my life. It's why the majority of my closest friends are also artists in some medium or other. Musicians and programmers and painters and draw-ers and tailors and poets etc. etc.
The sad fact that I have to own up to is that, really, until about 2007, I have been an artist largely in theory, not in practice. Although I've had moments of creative acts, it's mostly been in the context of school and work. My life has mostly been filled with avoidance and fear, convinced that I am worthless and incapable of anything. It's only around 2007 when I began to turn that around.
I am growing into the artist that I have always been in my heart. I hope that some day I can look back at what I've created and say, "I am an artist in fact" in all the ways that I want to mean that.
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Fable 2.
Yes, it was a while ago and I am sure there has to be some post on here - but who does not like restating the amazingness that was their own game? So, good, evil, clothes, looks? Go for it!
I am replaying it and now completely trying to go heavenly good, halo and all. Just finished the spire, as we all know these fable games go quickly but I still love them anyway.
So, go, go, describe!
Also, did anyone ever download the add ons from x-box live? Is it worth it?
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When Rob is at Dara's, I usually end up staying up late, regardless of my intentions. Wordsworth calls me around eleven or midnight to put me in bed and say goodnight, but I usually end up watching South Park until 3 am because I can't stop thinking about what he and I talked about that day and things he's said and our situation. This week he's sending me his dog tags, one of his sets. He says I'm a real Army girl now. He's never given anyone his tags before. Rob says it's like someone giving you his class ring, only ten times more meaningful.
I've been neglecting a lot. Friends, family, the dirty toilet bowl. I've been caught up in this whirlwind, and I am sorry I not only haven't been around, but also that I haven't really explained myself. It's hard to find words for what is happening, because on the outside, using normal words, it sounds like we're naive, or he's leading me on, or we've lost our minds. We have lost our minds. That's sort of the point. In my daily life, I load my new dishwasher, I talk to my boyfriend, I watch SVU with Rob, I snuggle with Grimm. I enjoy my new apartment, and having my possessions in it. I've become more housewifely, more talkative, more attentive to the basics of living. But every day I spend a few hours, here and there, lost to him. To my thoughts of him, to memories, to the sound of his voice. I am in love. I don't know when it happened, but one day, just days after I first met him, I knew--and he knew--that we belonged. And we know it's crazy. One of us says it every day, and the other agrees. But it's unstoppable now. Mainly because neither of us wants it to stop.
I am unspeakably proud that I am his real Army girl.
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